first snow of the season!
(aka seeing my family & friends)…here’s a [very incomplete] list of why i’m looking forward to being back in california.
1. in n out. need i say more?
2. college football.
3. warmer-ish weather. which is really a joke, because where we’re going for christmas is MUCH colder than it is in here. haha oh well.
4. being back at river city.
5. finally having all my stuff in the same place! no more moving between cities, in and out of dorms, packing up things for storage, etc. seriously. so. excited.
6. netflix, spotify, hulu, pandora, cable, etc. i mostly miss listening to whatever music i want all the time (you have to pay for it here…total first world problem, i know).
7. having fire’s in our fireplace all.the.time. except for the no-burn days, of course. don’t even get me started on that one…
8. going to tyler’s basketball tournaments and other games.
9. morgan-side of the family dinner at crow’s nest. best salad bar and fresh seafood EVER.
10. just-my-family dinner/birthday celebration at tahoe joes. best steak in the world. not.even.joking. their cheesecake is also pretty phenomenal.
11. giving out all the stuff i’m bringing back for everyone. i do love getting gifts too, but mostly i just love giving them. especially when you know it’s the perfect gift. it’s the best.
12. driving around looking at christmas lights with my family. a highlight of the christmas season for sure!
days until dad’s birthday: 15
days until california: 16
days until home: 18
days until dad’s birthday celebration: 19
days until church at rcg: 22
days until tahoe: 22
days until christmas: 25
days until santa cruz: 29
crow’s nest on the 30th,
and a happy new year’s eve on the 31st!
"Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever." Psalm 136:1
"Great is the Lord and, greatly to be praised, and his greatness is unsearchable." Psalm 145:2
…and in 22 days i’ll be back!
it is so very bittersweet that my time in germany is coming to an end, but i am incredibly excited to see my family and friends again!
22 days until i see tim and casie and the girls and I.AM.SO.EXCITED.
a few days later i fly home, home and will finally get to talk and laugh with zach, jordan, and tyler in person again, go to coffee with my mom and on drives with my dad. seriously, i can’t wait!
and a few weeks later, laurie will be back in ca and we’ll get to spend hours, and hours and hours talking and laughing and telling stories, making up for the last 4 months of only getting brief conversations here and there.
the future is exciting & there is much to look forward to!
i’m so thankful for the many ways God’s common grace is expressed. particularly through friendships.
getting to spend the week with the friesens has been so much fun! their hospitality has been completely humbling and they have made me feel right at home here. these boys are hysterical and crazy and so funny. (we went through a bunch of pictures of rcg folks, and jojo and jonny even remembered some of you!) i have loved getting to know lilly better, and we have talked about literally everything under the sun. theo got a precious jewel in her.
today we made “american” cookies (aka soft chocolate chip cookies), went to the park (which no one wanted to play at once we got there haha at least the walk there was fun), played some foosball, learned some new words in german (me) and english (them), took turns swinging on the awesome new swing in their basement & of course, took a bunch of pictures in photo booth.
doesn’t get much better than that, if you ask me!
my senior year in college was hard.
to be completely honest, it was nothing like i had anticipated. it started off in a way that i never could have imagined, with the death of paul sang during wow, which really set the trajectory for the rest of the year. it was by far the most academically challenging year of my college career (i remember coming in as a freshman, thinking seniors had it so easy. what a joke!). ra responsibilities were demanding and often discouraging. relationships were difficult to build and maintain, in part, because i had so little free time to maintain them. things were rocky at times even in some of my closest friendships. and the list goes on.
more times than i’d like to admit i called home crying, completely exhausted and having no idea how i was going to make it through the week. every monday i looked forward to saturday. it was a never ending cycle, that seemed to have no end in sight. i did want to quit at times, and over christmas break i really wrestled with the reality that the last place (literally) i wanted to be was on campus, but at the same time knowing that was where i needed to be.
the other day i was flipping through my journal and remembering all the moments that made my senior year “worth it.” it really is just the kindness of God. i’m not going to deny the fact that there is a long list of reasons why last year was difficult, but at the same time i have a huge list of reasons why i’m thankful for it. i was thinking about writing about it a while ago, and then decided to wait.
but then came tonight.
tonight i can’t sleep. so i did what ever normal (maybe?) person does and stalked a few people (just kidding. it was basically everyone i know) on facebook. i even stalked myself a little bit.
and you know what? all i could do was be thankful for last year.
i know, i know. people post the good stuff, the things that make their life look glamorous. but i don’t care, because there is a lot of good in life and those are the memories i want to hold onto, not the nights i spent crying because it was already midnight, i had been in meetings all day, and i hadn’t even started the greek homework for class at 9 the next morning (yes, that happened more than once).
there were a lot of memories i had forgotten about. things that seemed completely insignificant in the moment, but i found myself laughing at them and remembering other things at the same time. like the time elliot got hit on in target and when the boys reenacted it that night. going to the bailey’s and hanging out almost every week. going out for sushi all. the. time. that’s definitely is something that defines last year. jordan and i pulling off the perfect surprise and showing up at the ranch to make apple cider. engagement parties. movie nights in chapel media, with more candy and pizza than we knew what to do with. disney day and elliots handicap pass. leading a hike to a non-existent waterfall (oops. no, i didn’t get us lost, there just was no water). chocolate pie, lie to me, cult and “homemade” pasta. going to see the spiderman and les mis in simi and so much more that i won’t bore you with. these are the things i want to hold onto and remember from my senior year.
i agree with dr. seuss on this one. at the time, all those things got swallowed by everything else going on in my life. but now, they’re what i’m most thankful for.